My muscles weigh a lot

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. And thats really bad when one side of your bed is against the wall. Fuck. I want to go shopping, that would make me feel better, maybe?
I weighed this morning because I havent in 2 weeks and sadly I found I have gained 5lbs. I am now 285lbs. Fuck again. Whats really fucked up is the hubby and I have been really good with our eating the last two weeks and I'm hiting gym 3x a week. No skipping. Two weeks we've been working hard, cooking healthy, snacking healthy, and yet I see a 5lbs gain. Yes I know muscle weighs more blah blah blah but its so frustrating. I do however feel my belly is smaller and hips too! I feel great from my work outs so I will continue on. I just want to see some data to prove I'm doing well damnit.

I'm going to try this again. I really need an outlet to write and express myself if its a good day or a bad day. My interest are very wide so I cant tell you what will be on this blog daily. It will change just like the wild thoughts in my head.
Basically though I love writing and love the release it gives me. If I cant go get my rocks off with hunky tattooed muscle guys, then I shall write. HAHA

On a different note today I go in for a full physical. I am starting a 20-week weightloss program. In this I'll get help with meal plans and exercise plans. Also, I will have a personal nutritionalist, doctor, and counselor. I reall would love to feel better physically, aka not be out of breath or unfomfortable in my clothes. I LOVE my curves. Shit I'd be cool with a bigger ass and tits! I'd just like to feel better and be more active. Also, would love to lose my belly area. Anyway, this is going to be a fresh start. I will go in weekly to check how I'm doing. Also, my husband is totally on board with this so I'm excited for us both and hope we both see results! Then we can have "skinny sex" LOL